• She cried her last tear.  She said her goodbye and took a deep breath.  She for the first time turned around and walked out.  She cried her last tear for him

• she whispers into the mirror
   as she wipes the running eyeliner
  from her eyes .. [ i miss him ]

•  

• and it's no big deal,
  so i wasn't good enough for you,
  i've never been good enough.
  not for anything, or anybody
  my whole entire life.

•  

  

• you call me strong.
  you call me weak.
  but still your secrets,
  i will keep. you took
  forgranted all the times
  i never let you down.

• You ask me why I cry, I say "I don’t know", but yet, I just lied... I know exactly why these tears fall, but it isn’t worth explaining because I know you won’t understand...

• Why should she bother trying?
  The world has given up on her.

• once upon a time i was falling in love,,
  now i'm just falling apart.

• look at me, tell me what you see.
  memories fill the air.
  it's getting hard to breathe.

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Please don't act like you care.
You don't care, I know you don't,
You've watched me destroy myself for too long now,
If you really cared, you would have tried to stop it by now

And you can't stop me from falling apart
Cause my self-destruction is all your fault

Don't tell me who I am; because
unless I write all my thoughts down
on a piece of paper and hand it to
you, you don't even know half my life

 & theres that occasional night that

she just breaks down and cries

because she knows things willnever be the same

I wanna move on
but I'm scared that
I won't find anyone
else like you

she's such a pretty little thing
but when they give her compliments
she just wants them to shut up;
because no matter what,
she's still not good enough for him

All I wanted was for him to ask what was wrong.
For him to care about how I felt.
For him to hug me & hold me,
& promise that everything will be okay.

all she really wants is someone who will catch her when she falls, someone to realize her worth and hold her hand for no reason but the fact that they like the way it fits with theirs, someone who will sit with her under the stars, kiss her in the pouring rain, look into her eyes & say "you`re the one i`ve been waiting for"

I want something to make me feel whole.
I want something to make me feel complete.
I want a reason to put on my makeup in the morning.
I want a reason to set 45 minutes aside to do my hair.
I want a reason to not wear pajamas all the time.
I want a reason to actually care

lets drink to get drunk
and tell each other everything.
for a drunken mind, speaks a sober heart

and when I think about you, i have to remind myself
if he wanted to talk to me he would

rip her apart
watch the blood spill
pretend that its not your fault
but all those empty bottles?
they didnt get that way by themselves

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i'm not the kind of girl
who runs up when you walk into a room,
or the kind that talks to you every chance I get.
but I am the kind of girl who holds it all inside and regrets it later

im a sucker for the sweet talkers
the ones that treat me right
the ones that call randomly
or to just say goodnight
the ones that pull my hair back
loosely behind my ear
the ones that challenge me
and make me face my fears

Reminders. Souvenirs. Scars.
Letting you know you're fucked up.
You are a disappointment.
Addiction. Habit. Obsession.
You can stop anytime you want.
But it fills the worthlessness you feels inside.

You know the music isn't loud enough when you
can still hear yourself screaming and crying
along with the words

Tell me you've had trouble sleeping;
that you toss and turn from side to
side, that it's my face that you've been
seeing in your dreams at night.

And then I sat and cried
It was the worst kind of sobbing
the kind that hurts your chest
and steals your breathe
And no one could hear me

i still remember the first day we met
and that first time i looked into those sleepy brown eyes
i just wanted you to know
i'll never forget the butterflies

the worst feeling isn't being lonely-
it's being forgotten by somebody you could never forget

bite your lip. brace yourself.
you're not ready for this.
you can't handle it.

maybe you're just scared ;
      because someone might acutally want to be with you. but the
          real reason is because you want to be with them to.

I wanna hold hands
& waste friday nights with you.

Never make somebody your everything,
Because when they are gone... you will
be left with nothing.